If you live under a dark cloud…
If you feel helpless and small and wonder what you ever did to deserve this terrible life…
If you feel ineffective and in pain… then this article is FOR YOU.
Because I have been there.
I know what darkness feels like.
I’ve been lost.
I’ve woken up every morning with dread in my heart.
I know how painful and all-consuming it can feel.
After years of living in a cloud of darkness,
I found my way to the light.
It took time, patience, and love— lots of love. But I found my way out.
How did I do this? — Take my hand, and I will show you.
Here is the thing: If you struggle to feel good each day, if you wake up depressed every morning, and if you can’t seem to find a reason to go on— it is because you believe a LIE.
In fact, you are so immersed in this lie that you cannot see it for the LIE that it is.
It is a lie about yourself or the world— probably both.
What do I mean?
Here is a thought exercise: Tell me your thoughts about yourself and the world. What do you think about life, people, jobs, money, and the world?
Here is what I used to say…
My life is a mess.
The world is a terrible place.
People are horrible.
I’m stuck here.
I can never break free.
I hate my job.
I never have enough money.
The best I can do is survive.
I have to survive for my kid.
I hope the apocalypse happens soon because this place sucks!
These were just a few of the many dark thoughts swirling in my head. No wonder I felt so crappy!!
For years, I thought happy people didn’t see the world properly. I assumed they all lived with their heads in the sand. I thought it was my duty to wake them up to the truth. I often quoted articles about climate change, toxic poisons, evil politicians, money abuse, and a myriad of other scandalous things happening in the world—all evidence that we live in a terrible world and proof that everyone should be just as angry and depressed as me.
So– how did I get out?
Well, the most important thing is that I WANTED out. I was sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I didn’t WANT to be a Debbie Downer. I didn’t want to feel so crappy every day.
As time passed, the desire to crawl out of the dark hole became overwhelming.
Without the desire to leave the darkness ~ you most certainly will stay stuck.
There is no judgment here. Every soul is on a unique journey. If you need to explore the dark mucky muck, then I assume you NEED to explore that mucky muck.
For me, I needed to understand every facet of the darkness before coming into the light. I wallowed in the woes of the world. I know awful things happen. I know about lies, abuse, and the destruction of nature. I know that hurt people hurt people. I know all that … really well.
It was an important part of my journey to fully integrate the dark and chaotic underworld.
So, stay as long as you need—turn over every rock and explore every dark corner. Wallow in your pain, embrace your misery, and eat potato chips while doom-scrolling for as long as you like. Nobody can take that away from you. In fact, I am certain it is a sacred part of your process and mission here on old Earth.
But . . . Big but here. . .
That is NOT your true home. You are not meant to live in misery, poverty, and sadness. You are merely exploring and understanding the LIES that you have been programmed to beLIEve.
Once I understood this truth, it was much easier to extricate myself.
One day, you will be ready— ready to come into the light.
What you have been exploring is NOT real. It is an illusion.
We are all buried in illusion—the false self and the matrix. You can get to know and study it from every angle but don't believe it.
You have been immersed in the biggest lie humanity has ever been told— that you are weak, ineffective, and small— that the world is unfriendly and harsh, and the best you can do is survive. None of this is true!
The truth is:
You are not small
You are not broken
You are not helpless
There is nothing wrong with you.
The world is not evil
People are not out to get you
And
Abundance and joy are your inherent birthright.
You see, there is something inside you that is calling.
Under everything— under all the political shenanigans and media fear tactics, under all the war, the toxic poisons, under the hate, the poverty, and the perversions– under ALL of it is the one truth ~ the one indestructible, incorruptible spirit that you are— the spark of the divine— the truth of who you are.
AND nothing can touch that; nothing can damage or destroy that.
And so, if you’re stuck in the dark and wonder why you can’t seem to be happy, understand that you are caught in a web of lies.
If you burrow down, if you look deep enough—keep going until you find it—there's a spark—something brilliant and luminous, buried under all that mucky muck.
And when you find it, you find YOURSELF— the one truth you are. You are the light of the world.
The light that you are, your essential magnificence, has been covered with layers of conditioning, shame, and fear.
How did I discover this?
I prayed. With all the pain and desire in my heart, I prayed.
It doesn’t matter what you believe—Catholic, Jewish, Muslim, Buddhist, agnostic, or atheist— just pray.
Here is what I said to the air around me: “Whatever you are, whatever is out there– I need help– I need help!! I am so lost; I’m so stuck. Is there anything more? Get me out of here. Please, please, please. HELP me! This is a world of pain. Why am I here? Help me find peace.”
I prayed hard, demanded, stomped my feet, and even threatened God. It was powerful, mighty, and insistent.
Prayer is simply an expression of the desire in your heart—the most powerful energy in the universe.
And when you ask with love and sincerity, it shall be given. In fact, it MUST be given.
This is NOT a religious post. This is not about whatever you think God is or isn’t. This is about you finding YOU.
Because when you pray, you are reaching out to the YOU that knows everything– the TRUE you.
So, the first step is always to ask for help and be humble enough to open to discovering what you don’t know.
When you find love and let it shine – it won't matter how much money is in your bank account, what job you have, what you look like, who is in your life, or even who got elected. It won't matter how far into the apocalypse we actually are. It won't matter that everything is falling apart. It won't matter how many wars are going on or how much violence there is. It won't matter that there are fires, earthquakes, and floods.
It won't matter because there's something so beautiful inside you – something that is completely indestructible and untouchable.
This is the very light of who you are, and when you find it and let it shine, you will wake up every day excited to be alive. You will shine your light on everybody. You will share your gifts with the world, and as more and more people do that, it will change the world in ways you can't even imagine.
So, if you’re struggling, I’m here to remind you of your magnificence.
I’m here— waiting for you.
I can't wait to see you in the light.
So much love!
Marie ~ V.M. Elyse
Author of The Realm of Unity